By the time

in open of the general day start, the wander out to get my utilities topped up. I will have cleared up from the day before in clutter utterly history by then, and have a day of form filling again.  I have not bothered with the hassle of getting these utilities back on quarterly bills ..

Everything else can be taken care of .... even food and meals can come to the door .... when one has been in a condemned world ... one needed to spread the wings before they are clipped with age and that godforsaken time on relying on others again ... I have had a fair share of being on all sides of the coin. The pragmatic way some deal in their life lots ... of those before us in age and ills ... 

This gets me out on too, in  a timely manner, along with the essentials tops up too like milk .... The home delivery can only be periodically. Like life in generally, a lot of it does not give cheaper leaner options to singles ... 

And life is cheaper in the shop around. When one is on a lean mean time. Although some wonder how I do things. You adapt in finds. You enjoy the freedom of constraints. 

It is like a family my late Aunt (who never married) went on those regular exotic travels in many, and exotic as in Sardinia. The experiences in other places. The enabling in this despite really good careers in cutting back on other things in life, down to the food budget on the holiday. 

And a young mans dream of a car, was more than achieved on cutting back on much, to get it and enjoy it ... 

I do not necessary aspire to things, the travels is another matter. The build up back in life, when one built it once. That is not worth ... Travels could offer a new enlightenment... 

The rethink again this week on the burden it places on my leaving this earth earlier; is not worth the hassle ... 

Again a good time to reflect in time recharging the batteries very shortly again, and coming back again anew with a way round the dilemmas ... 

The new routines in find with making the ways back into a tattered, splattered life ... 

Many of us having the kids all grown up, the time now for some time different with the various trials faced at this time....  A serious op just recently been undertaken in one family. An accident in another a while ago. And a heart attack within a family older than me in working and extensive house alterations at the same time doing too much, now slowed him down .. 

And someone recently diagnosed with type two diabetes ... A close up of just what life is beyond my chilling dilemmas different ...